As I sip some yummy homemade hot chocolate from my good friend Nicole, It's really hard to describe the way I feel right now. I feel broken and numb. This month was the first month of "infertility help". Yes, I shouldn't think it should only take one month. But when you invest yourself and $300 you really hope that you are the lucky and get it on the first try. Plus its been 2 years in Jan. 2012, since we have been trying and have not had a successful life birth. Tim and I have decided that we are not going to try again with the doctors help next month due to the expense. This has been really hard on our marriage. It definitely made us stronger as a couple but is the root of a lot of quarrels. This next month we are planning on heading up to Flagstaff for a few nights to relax and hopefully play in the snow. I would love to make it as a goal to go out of town every month for at least one night. I wish we could make it happen and maybe we will.
Currently, Tim and I are planning on selling our house in April(3 years since we have been here). Which means we can sell it and not repay our 8,000 tax credit we got from the IRS for purchasing the house. This is actually keeping my mind distracted because I am OBSESSED with looking at houses. I have a redfin app on my IPAD. Its nice to see a lot of the houses are "pending" and are selling fast. We have decided to move because we want to be closer to our family, especially my mom. Also a bigger backyard would be nice. ;)
Tim and I have not decided what we want to do for New Years yet. We have had several offers to do things but have not decided yet. I am in a weird mood and don't know how I will feel come Saturday night.
I hope everyone had a wonderful Christmas!
Until next time,
XoXo,
J-Lo
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